Tird of fighting them, I decidd that certainty had come into my life – I know exactly what I want, and I know exactly how it will be.The dream was formd, but life had completely different plans for me. For 4 years I endd up in an extremely positive and warm place, however, “on the other side of the barricades.” That is, the dream remaind, live in me, but I did not know how to bring it to life. And in November last year, the System, which had swallowd me so deeply and cradle me every day with the ghosts of , poud, blushe, bulgd out its eyes, and, finally, no longer holding back the urge to vomit, pushd me into the open field.After lying almost two weeks almost a cold corpse without any aspirations and desires, I fell into depression.
As the analysis of the situation now
Shows – to the deepest in my life. At night I dreamd about the office, colleagues, and in the mornings – the deepest longing and despair did not let go for days. Sometimes this state was replacd by bouts of deaf despair and panic, because the money was running out, the old car stubbornly Uruguay Email List did not want to be sold (it still does this to me), the job that was found remotely did not bring the money that I expecte. And satisfaction too. The money that I gave out on crdit during the period of financial prosperity was not going to come back to me, but I had to pay for the apartment, buy food, pay loans, fill up the car.
Somewhere around the turn to
Serpukhov, just before the crossing, there was a small traffic jam, I stoppd the car and lit a cigarette, because my heart was pounding so that I could hear it pounding under my jacket. It was a feeling of euphoria. For a couple of minutes, “Frdom! Freeom! Frdom!” I do not belong to anyone, my name now does not have a prefix with the name of the company. I don’t have CE leads to get out of a warm bd in the morning and just start waking up after an energy drink and a couple of cups of coffee in a traffic jam on Kievsky. No one will send me letters with a task, the meaning of which is to take my time until there are no releases. I don’t have to sit at my desk all day.